UGHHHHh, ERGGGGGG, EGHHHHHH, AHHHHHH!!!

HOW???? WHY???? WHEN???? What does one do???? When U don't want to live by someone Else's shitty standards, what do u do?? When U don't want their same shitty life??? I'm sad and TirEd...I'm never disappointed When it comes to you because U never do anything new....Shock me some time....Shock me ever....... What Does "Normal" mean to You????? eVERYONE's so RIght, Why waste Ur tiMe Sarah...HAHAHAHA Oh DuH..Ur right GuyS..WHY???? Well let me tell U why I tried, why I wasted my time.....Shes 5, BIG, BiG Brown eYeS, a bright smile from ear to ear, and even bigger personality...Shes not a piece of property to me....Shes not PawN......I cant wait for the day She tells U where to Go.....I Guess I am subject to this life I have created for myself...And I am down to waste away time, money, energy and life on this game we call CoUrt...Do I want to????What do U think??? Do u wanna suffer for 13 MORE yearrsss, When things can just be "NORMAL".. U want Keep doing this to that Beautiful Smile...OKAY>>>>>> :( Just Venting sorry...Ur infamous words Freedom Of Speech..

New Years Resolution #2

My New Years Resolution #2 is probably everybody's resolution. BUT this is my commitment to doing it. I AM GOING TO LOSE 25 Pounds by Summer, eat healthy and get fit.

I miss my baby Bella Jade..

I Miss her. I do. I cant help but be sad. I miss my Isabella. I miss her smile. I miss her laugh. I miss her waking me up in the morning to watch our morning Spongebob. I miss our coloring together. I miss her saying "You get what you get and you don't throw a fit." I miss her famous question "Mommy will you dream about me tonight?" I miss her always wanting to be with the adults instead of the kiddies. Before she left she asked me if I was going to dream about her while she was gone. I was already so sad that she was going I almost cried. Baby I'll dream about you even when I'm awake!! I miss her skin and her hugs.I miss what we call BIG KISSES. She's not gone forever, no, but in total she is gone on Winter Vacation with her dad for 11 days..SIGH!!! Yes 11 days.. UGH!!! ;). She will be back Monday and I cant wait. I cant wait to squeeze her and love on her and baby if you could hear this silent shout "I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH." Have fun and see you soon.

New Years Resolution #1

My 1st New Years Resolution is to make PEACE. If you know me than that's enough said. :)

Stay Tuned for More!!

Hope Everyones Christmas Was Wonderful.

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas. Our Christmas was great. I went up to my mama's and did Christmas there with the girls. Then we did Christmas as a family in our new place. It was good. The girls got way to much stuff, but they loved it all. I usually love the holidays but I was a bit of a Scrooge this year. Things get a little rough with Isabella having to go to her dads for a week in a half, but I guess I will live. I really miss her right now and shes only been gone for 5 days. UGH but anyways, I really hope everyone had a great Christmas and an even better New Years. Does anyone have any New Years Resolutions?? I do and I will def post about them very soon.

More Photoshooting.. :)

I love my kids. They are so amazing.

I feel like all I do is upload pictures of my kids...But I cant help it..The other day I wanted to get some great photos of them so I took them out and this it what I got..They came out amazing. I am really getting into this whole photography thing..