Just a small update!! Resolution #3

This is just a small update. I really need to get back into the groove again but the New Year is going great my husbund got a huge promotion at work and got on this really great job..We are so excited. I pray everyday that this year will be amazing and for some reason I know it will. Life is what you make it and I want to make it amazing..New Years Resolution #3 for me is to learn how to accept the things and people i can not change..I am okay with that and I am staying strong always..Im loving life at this moment. amazing kids, Wonderful husbund and a great, supportive family.

Happy New Years..

2010 is going to be crazy beautiful..

UGHHHHh, ERGGGGGG, EGHHHHHH, AHHHHHH!!!

HOW???? WHY???? WHEN???? What does one do???? When U don't want to live by someone Else's shitty standards, what do u do?? When U don't want their same shitty life??? I'm sad and TirEd...I'm never disappointed When it comes to you because U never do anything new....Shock me some time....Shock me ever....... What Does "Normal" mean to You????? eVERYONE's so RIght, Why waste Ur tiMe Sarah...HAHAHAHA Oh DuH..Ur right GuyS..WHY???? Well let me tell U why I tried, why I wasted my time.....Shes 5, BIG, BiG Brown eYeS, a bright smile from ear to ear, and even bigger personality...Shes not a piece of property to me....Shes not PawN......I cant wait for the day She tells U where to Go.....I Guess I am subject to this life I have created for myself...And I am down to waste away time, money, energy and life on this game we call CoUrt...Do I want to????What do U think??? Do u wanna suffer for 13 MORE yearrsss, When things can just be "NORMAL".. U want Keep doing this to that Beautiful Smile...OKAY>>>>>> :( Just Venting sorry...Ur infamous words Freedom Of Speech..

New Years Resolution #2

My New Years Resolution #2 is probably everybody's resolution. BUT this is my commitment to doing it. I AM GOING TO LOSE 25 Pounds by Summer, eat healthy and get fit.

I miss my baby Bella Jade..

I Miss her. I do. I cant help but be sad. I miss my Isabella. I miss her smile. I miss her laugh. I miss her waking me up in the morning to watch our morning Spongebob. I miss our coloring together. I miss her saying "You get what you get and you don't throw a fit." I miss her famous question "Mommy will you dream about me tonight?" I miss her always wanting to be with the adults instead of the kiddies. Before she left she asked me if I was going to dream about her while she was gone. I was already so sad that she was going I almost cried. Baby I'll dream about you even when I'm awake!! I miss her skin and her hugs.I miss what we call BIG KISSES. She's not gone forever, no, but in total she is gone on Winter Vacation with her dad for 11 days..SIGH!!! Yes 11 days.. UGH!!! ;). She will be back Monday and I cant wait. I cant wait to squeeze her and love on her and baby if you could hear this silent shout "I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH." Have fun and see you soon.

New Years Resolution #1

My 1st New Years Resolution is to make PEACE. If you know me than that's enough said. :)

Stay Tuned for More!!

Hope Everyones Christmas Was Wonderful.

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas. Our Christmas was great. I went up to my mama's and did Christmas there with the girls. Then we did Christmas as a family in our new place. It was good. The girls got way to much stuff, but they loved it all. I usually love the holidays but I was a bit of a Scrooge this year. Things get a little rough with Isabella having to go to her dads for a week in a half, but I guess I will live. I really miss her right now and shes only been gone for 5 days. UGH but anyways, I really hope everyone had a great Christmas and an even better New Years. Does anyone have any New Years Resolutions?? I do and I will def post about them very soon.